|'Fire and Ice' 12x24 pastel ©Karen Margulis|
I got the nicest compliment at my demo last night. The artist said to me "You paint with so much confidence. It's like you aren't afraid!" And she was right. I'm not afraid ...usually. Because I know it is only a piece of paper. But sometimes I have to remind myself. Sometimes I have to convince myself to try something because I have nothing to lose but a little of my time and a piece of paper.
Take today's painting of Bryce Canyon in the snow. My husband and I took a Winter trip to the Southwest several years ago before I started painting. We had snow the entire adventure. We even got snowed in at the Grand Canyon! But the snow turned the landscape into a a magical wonderland. The red rocks covered in snow was a sight to see. I took photos. But I haven't had the nerve to paint them. How could I possible capture the beauty I experienced?
|close up of' Fire and Ice'|
The other day I was flipping through my winter photos and the one of Bryce in the snow caught my eye. Should I try to paint this? Dare I give it a go? I had been avoiding it for years never feeling capable enough (sound familiar?) But This time it was different.
I had given up my fear of failure. What did it matter if the painting didn't turn out? Who would even know besides the dog? And who would care. Not the dog. It is only paper and if I din't like it I could brush it out, spray it or do any number of things to play with it. The most important thing is that I tried and that I had fun doing it.
So I put on some Native American flute music to get me in the mood. I cut a long narrow piece of paper. (the scale of it doesn't read well on the blog) I chose to do an oil stain underpainting. I let it dry and kept on painting. At some point I realized I had finished. I was so involved that I had lost track of time. Sure, there were things that needed fixing but I felt a sense of accomplishment that I didn't let fear stop me from painting.
Sometimes you have to trick yourself into believing that you are confident.....that you CAN paint. Sometimes you just have to throw caution to the wind and just do it..... after all it is only paper!
|'Bryce Canyon Snow' 5x7 pastel|
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